KEEPIN IT REAL

i can't sleep. here is why:

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 08:12:37 GMT

every time i talk to my grandmother on the phone she always asks me how my love life is going. this is starting to become embarrassing because my answer is always the same: it's nonexistant. it's also becoming depressing. i have been single for going on TWO YEARS now. i don't even have a crush on anyone. i am almost furious.

i am also almost furious about how i still do not have a job. i did not get either one of the jobs with the arts & science council. i am going to check how many jobs i have applied to since March: 47. Out of those, I only even got interviews with 3 places, and only one of those was even in-person. jeez louise.

these are basic human desires, to want a job and to want a significant other. WHY AM I SENTENCED TO LANGUISH FOREVER WITH NEITHER

i am also almost furious about how things have to die. cyndi died almost exactly a year ago. any living thing could die at any time. i am going to go throw up.

holy shit

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 12:58:25 GMT

i bought my first coffee maker

i kind of want to read the newspaper while i drink my cup of morning coffee before "work"

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 20:10:06 GMT

i am extremely cranky!!!!!!

career update

Tue, 21 Jul 2009 01:20:39 GMT

this is a big week for me.

monday: had a preliminary phone interview with an education nonprofit downtown who are looking for an administrative assistant. 20-25 hrs a week, $15/hr. the interview was a lot more intense than i thought it'd be; apparently their standards are sky high... good thing i'm so AWESOME huh! i hear back on thursday or friday about the next round of interviews.

tuesday: charlie's first birthday! i go into the Bechtler Museum of Modern Art around 2 to help set up their facebook page, and hopefully have an audience with the president of the museum to discuss how i can weasel my way into a job there someday

wednesday: all day 8-5 or later at "little italy", the bechtler family's art compound. being a photographer's assistant i think. free lunch.

thursday: my first day getting paid $10/hr for an internship with a public relations agency downtown!

friday: WHO KNOWS WHAT THE FUTURE MAY HOLD!

career update

Sat, 11 Jul 2009 03:37:45 GMT

after two months and two interviews (the last of which was with the entire departmen & i nailed it), i finally found out that i did NOT get the job at discovery place. mega-bummer.

however, the same day i got that news I finally spoke on the phone with someone from the Bechtler Museum of Modern Art, which is opening here next spring. i accepted an internship with them doing a graphic design project and then whatever other things they have for me to do. it's unpaid though, of course. this is my fourth unpaid internship :'[ i'm sad no one can pay me for all of the great things i can do. plus the lady told me their plans for hiring which are extremely limited and it doesnt sound like they plan to offer any positions for someone like me. i mean unless i want to just work in the museum shop :'[

but i really feel like if i hang around there enough, they'll realize how valuable i am and offer me a job at some point. right now i just want to help out in any way that i can and see where it goes.

after talking with the lady at the Bechtler about my career goals, she recommended a graduate certificate program at UNCC to me. it's a certificate in nonprofit management. i applied today, hopefully i'll be accepted. if i want to turn it into a masters degree later, all of the credits could be applied towards that, too. also, all of the classes are at night in case i do manage to land myself a full-time day job.

as for now though i applied to be a cashier at target :'[

god damn this economy

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 23:50:13 GMT

summer

Wed, 27 May 2009 00:52:55 GMT

this has been me lately:

im at my happiest when there's a dang party goin on

Tue, 12 May 2009 04:25:56 GMT

i feel like a weird awful failure in the calmest worst way.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PILLIS!!!

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 05:42:19 GMT

look who is 2!!

the tiny apple of my eye

jobs??

Sun, 05 Apr 2009 23:33:11 GMT

when i set my mind to something i pretty much always get what i want. except for when it comes to dudes, and now, apparently, FINDING A CAREER.

i posted my resume on monster and careerbuilder. i joined linkedin. i wheedled as hard as i could at my internships but both of my bosses said "oh i would hire you in a heartbeat if i could, but we just don't have the funds to hire anyone new". i've been scouring the job postings online everyday but all they have are shitty fly-by-night pyramid scheme bullshit jobs. i sent my resume and a writing sample to every public relations firm in charlotte. i graduate in a month. i'm almost out of student loan money. i'm getting pretty nervous.

so if anyone knows of any job openings coming up i'd love to hear of them. i'm finishing up 2 public relations / marketing / development internships now, one with the Mint Museum and one with the Humane Society of Charlotte.

also if anyone has any advice i'd like to hear it

also if anyone would like to be my friend on linkedin that'd be cool i only have 3 connections and 2 of them are with my parents haha

job hunt

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 01:43:09 GMT

my dad said it was time to start looking for a job. i am graduating in may, after all. i've been scouring monster and careerbuilder but they just have boring jobs. ideally i'd work with art or animals. so i went to the humane society of the united states webpage and was looking on a site for animal-related job postings when i found this gem:

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Position Wanted - Animal Protection

I'm looking to help animals on the front line with anti-poaching activities. I'm an avid hiker, kayaker and have experience with ancient weapons. I can relocate and would prefer defending Mountain Gorillas, Orangutans or big cats. Email for more info.

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awesome. Awesome.

the ferret is FOUND!

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 00:11:57 GMT

she is at animal control! haha today i decided to put up LOST FERRET posters even though everyone made fun of me... before i had even finished hanging all of them at the first intersection, a lady had pulled over and said she had found her and animal control had her!

im sooooooo happy. i found her!!!

charlie :(

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 18:47:32 GMT

charlie got hit by a car last night. but he's not dead, he's in the hospital. i saw the whole thing it was awful. the car didn't even stop! charlie was screaming and screaming but everyone immediately went into perfect emergency mode, i grabbed my purse and thomas picked charlie up and put him in the car and we were on our way to the hospital. kaylyssa met me there. they took him away from me immediately. many hours later it turned out everything looked fine except for his humerus has a "really nasty fracture" and he has to be transferred to an orthopedic specialist at another hospital to have surgery and get pins put in his little shoulder-arm :(

its really painful but he cant have the surgery til monday so they're keeping him in the icu til then, on a morphine drip. but i get to visit him today at 4.

so far it has cost me $1,400... and they havent even started to fix it yet :'(
the hospital he's transferring to is the same one i took cyndi to when she was dying. they're the best. but her bills were SO expensive and she didn't even have any surgery... i didn't expect to have to deal with such big vet bills again so soon after she died. luckily my dad fell in love with charlie when he watched him while i was on the cruise and he is trying to find ways to get the money together to lend to me. im really lucky to have him and im really lucky charlie didn't get hurt any worse.

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 06:15:31 GMT

robin and i set out on sunday afternoon to go to chapel hill to see yardwork. we knew we'd get snowed in and were into it. we stopped in winston-salem to visit mike and robin decided to get snowed-in there instead. i was supposed to meet that guy from durham though so i continued on in the rain and snow to chapel hill. when i was halfway there he decided to suck a million dicks and bail on me so i was just like "fuck you forever" and turned around to go back to winston. along the way my car spun out 180 degrees on the highway there was so much snow! i almost hit another car that had also spun out. it was scary i thought i was gonna die. i had been driving for like 5 hours and was in the worst mood ever. but once i got back to winston-salem everything started ruling. i opened a bottle of wine and met a guy who was as into games as i was, we played cards and chess all night, taking a break to all go out sledding on tupperware in the middle of the night it was so much fun! robin and mike cooked dinner and it was delicious.

here i am in a sled

here is robin in the snow

here are the chess pieces we played with, they include little cats and bunnies

the night ended with watching jeopardy on youtube. perfect. the next day robin made me buy her a $30 lunch and then later we got in a snowball fight with some kids. i went home happy.

but now its back to real life and i have a big paper due tomorrow >:| i had too much fun on the weekend i am addicted to traveling and having fun. i cant get enough ugh. MORE PLS 4EVER THX

robin and i will be in the bahamas this time next week thank gosh
but you know what its never quite enough
now i have to go back to reading scientific studies about how life satisfaction increases exponentially when you have a significant other cool cool rub it in
i am still working on that one.

internet dating update: love poetry

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 03:47:50 GMT

From: terryruff
Date Received: February 22
Subject: Hi from Terry .

terryruff
36-year-old man
Matthews, NC, US
Seeking: Women 21-50

A says
Woman is attractive flower
B says
Woman is beautiful gift
C says
Woman is great source of comfort
D says
woman has a sweet dialect
E says
Eastern or western, woman is the worthy
F says
woman is central figure of family
G says
woman always glitters with the rays of her partner
H says
woman has holy spirits
I says
woman has basic institution in her lap
J says
woman is a full of joy
K says
woman is head of kisses
L says
woman is lovely thing
M says
woman is symbol of modesty
N says
nails increase the beauty of woman
O says
woman is an pretty ornament
P says
woman is princess
Q says
woman is queen
R says
woman is rare gift
S says
woman is a main source of survival the human being
T says
woman has true spirits of love
U says
woman is an peaceful umbrella
V says
woman is valley of love
W says
woman is wafer
X says
woman has sweet kisses
Y says
woman is your jewellary
z says
woman has great zeal

:'(

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 19:11:55 GMT

i have pink eye.

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 23:09:04 GMT

pillis just typed this (and only this) into the search bar on myspace:

;l

internet dating

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 19:27:31 GMT

here is my latest gem of a first message:

12/13/2008 - 10:44am
im writing you for i think you r cute. So i will tell u a little bit about myself. First of all im cuban, like music but limit my self to some kinds and to some time as well in other words i believe even music can harm, love poetry and mostly all kind of art, like to do outdoor sports not to much into nightclub ( to my eyes it like cloning every saturday doing the same.) but i like dancing from time to time and i think im good at it, i love animals and nature but above all i try to love my self the most including my dark side. in case you haven't figure it out yet i like philosophy and science and apply as much as i can to my life, im not spacial, have not super abilities and don't care about the next 20 minutes i life my life to the fullest in is true meaning, i work alot, im a computer tech which say it all, i love computers, not looking for romantic love, not looking for a night stand, not looking for any one, in reality im just waiting, not for soul mate but for a true human being, with dark and light, capable of true love and friendship. if by any chance you are interested in talking some time it would be a pleasure i don't know you, i may do some day and yet again i may never will so sweet life and joyful days for and uncertain future.

bye bye

xmas portrait

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 21:12:19 GMT

for those of you who missed it... (I ran out of cards, sorry!)

naked dude

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 21:27:26 GMT

i am on a cruise right now. we left for it yesterday morning . we had just boarded our plane when down the aisle walks a completely naked middle-aged man. he sat himself down 2 rows in front of me as the stewardesses started to holler. he said "THIS IS MY SEAT YOU WILLLLLL PERMIT ME TO FLY ON THIS PLANE" they wrested him out of the seat it took 3 men struggling to get him off the plane as he shouted "YOU! WILL! NOT! PREVAIL!" he was extremely strong in both his body and his convictions.

everyone thinks he was insane, i think maybe he was just standing up for nudists' rights. he was sedated and strapped to a stretcher and maybe arrested.
merry christmas!

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 15:22:08 GMT

charlie is getting neutered right now. i'm nervous!!

also everybody, check yr mailboxes for my christmas card! let me know what you think!

Isn't Charlie Getting Handsome?

Tue, 16 Dec 2008 23:04:33 GMT

homies forever

LAST CALL FOR XMAS CARDS!!!

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 03:08:11 GMT

THIS IS THE LAST CALL FOR CHRISTMAS CARDS Y'ALL!!! leave yr address!!!!!

xmas photoshoot outtakes

Sun, 14 Dec 2008 03:00:17 GMT

it was a rough photoshoot but we made it through. i have the final picture, it is pretty awesome, but you'll have to wait to get yours in the mail to see it! (well i'll probably post it on actual xmas, too)

christmas portrait

Thu, 11 Dec 2008 22:26:50 GMT

i am still waiting around to take my family christmas portrait with pillis and charlie. i have to coordinate with both brandon (camera owner, busy with work) and kaylyssa (photographer, busy with sleep). i hope it comes out something like this

leave me your address if you want a christmas card with the photo!